Its the last week of sch and fri marks the end of my sch life... No more lectures forever, no more being a student anymore... Seriously, I can't get over this feeling... I can't and am not ready to move on. Yet, I know I've to. I can't study forever, its not realistic. Its the move from being a student, carefree to completely a responsible adult, independent... Gone will be the days of relying on friends and having them to be there for me in sch and stuff... I'll never ever experience the 'student life' anymore. And I just can't get over it.

I wish I can be a child forever, I wish time can just stop here forever, I wish I don't have to grow up... How ironic... Here I am, not wishing to grow up but younger kids out there wishing they could grow up faster. Its not nice being a grown up.

Really feel lost abt the future, abt entering this new phase in life, knowing that year after year, u'll age and that u'll never experience what u've experienced in sch anymore. No idea what I want to work as, no idea where my interest lies, no plans, no goals... I feel aimless and directionless... Its like not knowing if one is able to perform on the job and fearing that I'll regret my decision thus, delaying the sending out of resumes... Its like living in denial? Its so hard to say goodbye to memories, to friends, to that feeling, to everything that I have now as a student... I just feel miserable!